The past weeks I've tried to apply this lesson. When the vet called with the biopsy results and my worst nightmare I basically fell apart. Panic took over. I just couldn't stop crying or the icy cold feeling in my stomach from spreading. Looking at Morty and seeing his concern I knew I had to pull it together and deal. He has complete and total faith in my ability to take care of him so that's what I am doing. I've been on the net done my research: he's now on a raw food diet and is getting supplements that inhibit tumor growth and strengthen his immune system. Of course raw meat translates to heaven on earth for a wolf dog! And he's responding, incredibly well actually. He's gained weight, his coat is shinier than ever and I swear the tumor hasn't grown may even have shrunk. How I wish I had known about the amazing benefits of a natural diet years ago. I waffle between hope for remission, stopping the cancer (!) after all Morty has helped me cheat death before and the dread that it will slowly take its course and it will be up to me to make sure he doesn't suffer. He is on metacam, an anti-inflammatory so in no discomfort that I can discern, still super playful and full of energy so I am grateful for the present moment and reminded that it's all we ever really have - need to stay calm, right here, right NOW.
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Cheating Death
The past weeks I've tried to apply this lesson. When the vet called with the biopsy results and my worst nightmare I basically fell apart. Panic took over. I just couldn't stop crying or the icy cold feeling in my stomach from spreading. Looking at Morty and seeing his concern I knew I had to pull it together and deal. He has complete and total faith in my ability to take care of him so that's what I am doing. I've been on the net done my research: he's now on a raw food diet and is getting supplements that inhibit tumor growth and strengthen his immune system. Of course raw meat translates to heaven on earth for a wolf dog! And he's responding, incredibly well actually. He's gained weight, his coat is shinier than ever and I swear the tumor hasn't grown may even have shrunk. How I wish I had known about the amazing benefits of a natural diet years ago. I waffle between hope for remission, stopping the cancer (!) after all Morty has helped me cheat death before and the dread that it will slowly take its course and it will be up to me to make sure he doesn't suffer. He is on metacam, an anti-inflammatory so in no discomfort that I can discern, still super playful and full of energy so I am grateful for the present moment and reminded that it's all we ever really have - need to stay calm, right here, right NOW.
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It's a special gift to read this, it took me ten minutes to write this far my mind was so stunned. I had and still have the pleasure of knowing Morty a little, all I can come up with is...
ReplyDeleteLife is always finding a way, it's all around us, in us, through us, we just have to see it, to take the time to see it.